dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
Posts: 477
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| Topic: one question. |
Sat 11/01/08 01:47 PM |
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20/21 yrs difference ok but I can't say nothing there's 18 between me and my boyfriend. He's 54 I'm 35
yeah but thats different...because you guys arent my parents lol |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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| Topic: A Few Extra Pounds... |
Sat 11/01/08 01:42 PM |
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Why do I see this board turning ugly?
because people feel the need to validate why its not acceptable to be chunky... |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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| Topic: A Few Extra Pounds... |
Sat 11/01/08 01:34 PM |
i think that douche bag from last night needs to wear like...an apathy body suit...so he can see what its like to have a "few extra pounds"
maybe then he wont be such an a$$...
i dont particlarly LIKE being the weight i am, but im comfortable with myself, and im slowly but surely shedding the lbs...i just wish others would see that too... |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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| Topic: my not-so-mid-life crisis...(its long) |
Sat 11/01/08 12:08 AM |
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We're always here for you to talk to.
thats what i thought until i was told that he was too busy to talk to me...
:( |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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| Topic: my not-so-mid-life crisis...(its long) |
Sat 11/01/08 12:02 AM |
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thank you guys, it really does mean alot to me...
since the one person that i thought would be able to give me some words of wisdom and advice is too busy in his little thread to talk to me, im just gonna go have a few more shots and take a shower...
thank you guys again
Dia. If you need someone to talk to, just email me. Seriously.
i will, thank you... |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
Posts: 477
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| Topic: my not-so-mid-life crisis...(its long) |
Fri 10/31/08 10:53 PM |
thank you guys, it really does mean alot to me...
since the one person that i thought would be able to give me some words of wisdom and advice is too busy in his little thread to talk to me, im just gonna go have a few more shots and take a shower...
thank you guys again |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
Posts: 477
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| Topic: How NOT to avoid a ticket... |
Fri 10/31/08 10:04 PM |
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I don't have a driver's license
...or insurance...i dont even know who i stole this car from... |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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| Topic: How NOT to avoid a ticket... |
Fri 10/31/08 10:00 PM |
"lemme guess...3 more tickets and your wife gets a brand new toaster?!?!"
"youre not gonna look in the trunk are you?"
"i didnt know they made police uniforms that big"
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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| Topic: my not-so-mid-life crisis...(its long) |
Fri 10/31/08 09:42 PM |
| thank you guys...its been a really rough night...and as much as i try to find that silver lining it doesnt seem to be in sight |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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| Topic: my not-so-mid-life crisis...(its long) |
Fri 10/31/08 08:52 PM |
ok, im going to do something that i have never in my life done...im going to open up and lay it all on the table, point blank...
this whole week has been one big test for me, and quite frankly, it feels like im failing. monday night i walked into my moms room to her choking on her vomit while she was passed out. i called 911 and got an ambulance on the way. while on the phone with the dispatcher i had to throw cups and sups of cold water on her to get her to keep her eyes open. when the paramedics finally got there we came to find out that she had intentionally overdosed on sleeping pills as well as blood pressure pills. by the time we arrived at the hospital, literally 5 minutes away, she had stopped breathing on her own and they had to put a breathing tube down her throat and pump her full of IV fluids to keep her blood pressure up because the meds she took were to lower it. by that time it was too late to pump her stomach because she had taken them a few hours prior to me finding her. i had to sit there and watch as she gagged on the breathing tube, wondering why she would do this to herself...it really is a feeling that you cant describe. so i stayed up all night at the hospital until i went home around 8am and finally got to sleep after being awake for 27 consecutive hours. i wake up to a phone call saying i need to get back up there that she was crashing. i get back up there and all i see is doctors everywhere...i signed what needed to be signed and was immediately told to go to the waiting room. so a while later one of the nurses comes out and says shes stable and whatnot and that i can go back to see her...she was unconcious due to the IV they had given her to relax her so she would stop fighting and trying to pull out the tube. so i went home and decided to go through her night stand to see if there was anything else that she had taken and stumbled upon a few diaries from back when i was a baby up until i was around 5 or 6. the biggest mistake i made was opening that first diary...within the first 10 pages i found out more about my infant/toddler years then i wished to know. not only did my mom take my sister and i, when i was 18 months old, and tried to jump off a bridge with us in hand, but when i was 1 she got pregnant with what would be my little brother, but he passed away 2 days after he was born. i then came to find out that all this time, my mom blamed me for his death...theres more to the diaries but that could go on even longer. so thats pretty much been my week up to today. my ex and i have had plans to go to a halloween party at a mutual friends house for a while now. he decides to tell me half an hour before we were supposed to go that hes going, but hes not bringing me with because theres going to be a girl there that he wants to flirt with and doesnt want me around. thanks alot a$$hole. so it was at that point where i basically told him that i dont want to be friends with him anymore...so now i have that, on top of what ive already gone through this week and i just feel a huge meltdown coming along and im freaking out...i have no idea what to do right now, this is just too much to handle within one week...and i appologize for this long novel but i needed to get it out...
*sigh* |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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| Topic: I need some encouragement. |
Fri 10/31/08 01:45 PM |
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OMG!!!
YOU BETTER PUT ON THE WADERS IF I START BULLCHITTEN!!!
CAUSE ITS GONNA GET DEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!
haha i have some blue water wings? lol well, in theory theyre my 3yr olds... |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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| Topic: I need some encouragement. |
Fri 10/31/08 01:35 PM |
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i call your bullsh!t and raise you 50!
You're bull****ting me. All in.
bring. it.
Showtime.
what you playin with hmmm? |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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| Topic: I need some encouragement. |
Fri 10/31/08 01:22 PM |
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i call your bullsh!t and raise you 50!
You're bull****ting me. All in.
bring. it. |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
Posts: 477
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
Posts: 477
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| Topic: Trust ??? |
Fri 10/31/08 11:05 AM |
i trust myself.
other then that, i have been proven not to trust others. |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
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| Topic: Why can't people... |
Fri 10/31/08 01:10 AM |
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lucky.
wine for me :)
Red, White, or Blue?
red. not too keen on white wine... |
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dia_licious
Joined Wed 01/16/08
Posts: 477
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| Topic: late night confessions |
Fri 10/31/08 01:09 AM |
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the only way for me to relieved of this burden is when i tell someone something real deep that has been bottled up for a long time. 
if i did that everyone would think i was crazy or something... |
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