looking for someone to build a meaningful life with. based on trust, love and understanding. wow!!! i am asking for alot. don't you think? well, isn't that what we all want?

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Awkward Pause

Oh, god
Why did I say that
Why
When will I ever learn
to just
keep my mouth
shut

This awkward feeling between
hush and possible rejection
Between breathing and
suffocation
Anticipation
Desperation
Expectation
Hopefulness
It all comes to a head...
Here and now
in the shadow of my exposure

In the midst of this
stifling quiet
The little specs of
yellow
in your eyes are
burning me
Like the magnified sun
of a seemingly innocent childhood
experiment with an ant hill and a piece of glass
but, the though was launched
its sink or swim
do or die
somebody please kill me...
Before these knots in my stomach turn me inside out

This, this,
This, transference of power...
This, leap from the safety of
my self contained
hid-a-way
whose walls
only yesterday
were thought to be
impenetrable
Now to be standing here engulfed by
this uncomfortable
loss of poise
At the mercy of
another soul
searching for the end of loneliness
Is it my sanctuary
you seek
my heart where you will find
comfort
or does it cease today
because i spoke out of turn
Put my body naked
in the middle of a
most desolate tract
Stand unprotected in
the sandstorm of your
silence

Say something,
anything...


kc08

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The Inviting Kiss

You invite me with a kiss
A long deep slow invitation to join you in a symphony of affection
We retreat as love the conductor summons the orchestra
Blankets cast aside
Like the curtains of a great music hall
Pillows and clothes line up around us as if an audience prepared for the performance
The lights go down
The room quiets as the players ready
The only sounds to be heard are the light moans of the woodwinds deepening breaths
We kiss as hands explore each other
Heartbeats quicken and get louder like the bass drums building in the background
Kissing your soft skin around your neck and down to your stomach
Missing nothing in between
Light scents fill the air
Matched by the conductors calling for the strings to join in the movement
Lower still
Your hands find my hair
As my tongue flicks its way around begging your flower to unfold in the sunlight that is my desire
Your breathing erratic now mixed with soft sighs and deep moans
One hand pushing against the headboard the other pulling my head to you
Like opposing forces and neither will give ground
The orchestra louder and louder by order of the conductor
Trying to keep up with your cries
You arch your back as the wave of the first chorus works its way to your wanting shore
Building and building until it peeks and comes crashing down like the sound of a million pieces of glass hitting the stage and bouncing around in decreasing decibel
The maestro is pleased
You quiver with each echo rebounding through the hall
The sound of the harps dance in the night, picking stars from the heavens and dangling them in front of you
Their light reflects in your eyes and I have never seen you more beautiful
You pull me to you and the piano coxes the entrance of the sonnet
Slowly we move together in perfect harmony
We are one
So sweet so tender so beautiful
Our souls come together where the flesh ends
Every breath you take gives me life
My heart circulates for we two
Our eyes lock half closed
Ecstasy
Half open
Pleasure
We stare long and true
As our bodies dance to the waltz filling the night air
Nothing matters at this moment
But the moment
I want to share this with you forever
You feel the vibrations of the distant storm
But you are not ready
And as the composer intended
On the perfect down beat
The conductor turns the page and the arrangement changes
You take first chair
As I sit on the stage looking up to the wonder of you
Riding me into a short but powerful solo
You lift me to your glistening breast
Pleasure and pain walk together and neither gets the night off
With the rhythm section holding strong
My mouth finds your erectness
And I bite down
Releasing my grasp as the delight turns to ache
The horns like your fingernails dig deep into my back
As I reach behind you and pull your hair
Tilting your head to one side
The violins mimic your screams
Loves arms are raising and sweeping begging the company to hold each note as if it were the last
Trying to draw every ounce of energy from each tone
The whirlwind of this piece has the audience silently entranced
We roll over as before
Twisting and turning
Legs fighting for leverage
Never stopping
Oblivious to all that surrounds us
All but the passion that has engulfed the concerto
There are no children present
And words not often spoken escape your swollen lips
**** me **** me you urge unto me
Pulling me deeper
Begging me not to stop
Squeezing me with all of your might
The crescendo building ever closer
Our pace increases
Feverishly we continue
Moaning and crying out
Trying not to reach the end
Though we both know we want to
The slide of the winds in and out
The bows from the strings rising and falling
The conductor’s arms
Flailing about, commanding everyone to stay in time
Building to a deafening climax
The drummers beating harder and harder
Pounding out the last of the composition
Faster and faster the opus moves
Finally ending with the piercing sound of two nearly simultaneous earsplitting determined roars of thunder
The tiny drops of sweat rain over us
And give life to what we share
And for just a instant
Silence prevails
The conductor raises her hands to her lips and blows a kiss to the company
Opening loves arms as if to embrace us for all eternity
Then bows in thanks to the players who just gave their all
The hum of our breathing subsiding
As the reverberation of the now faint ending slips away
I collapse and melt into you
Pulling the covers over us
We lie together
Holding on to the last of a magnificent recital
As I slip into half sleep
Thinking
One last kiss before we succumb
Thinking
I can’t wait for tomorrow
Thinking
There is nothing more beautiful than this
Thinking about
The next inviting kiss


kc08
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Tonight

sitting alone at my piano
trying to finish this song
but there’s no melody
to the words i can’t see
what am doing so wrong

my fingers trip on the keys now,
and all i can think of is you
the words are hidden somewhere-
in the pain and despair
behind a window that hasn’t a view

and tonight i’m gonna be lonely
oh tonight i’m gonna be scared
when I wake-
i’ll be the only - survivor
in a world that’s no longer there

with a heart that’s seen its share of sadness
and a million stories to tell
i need something to halt all this madness
`cause alone- i’m not doing so well

i’m getting good at the art of deception
lie to myself to get through
only a few more hours to go now
just to make it-
one more night without you

tonight i’m gonna be lonely
yeah tonight it’s gonna be cold
at night time passes so slowly
but it has no problem making me old

tonight is gonna be lonely
tonight is gonna be sad
tonight i’ll feed off of memories
tonight that’s all that i have


kc08
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All That Glitters

You went from 120 down to 115
A liposuction procedure that
You did not need
The greedy plastic surgeon
Was just like you
Couldn’t see past the checkbook
It obstructed his view
When a crooked partner
Cost me both companies
You suddenly had
Other places to be
You’re so supportive

You put your
Fendi, Coach and Prada bags
In the Lois Vatan luggage
With your Chanel rags
Jimmy Choo, D & G
Vera Wang, D & B
These ****ing names are
Confusing me
You drove off in a
$54,000.00 suv
Quite a step from the
Escort you had
When you first met me
When I had to tell you no
You freaked out
It’s about time you learned
What life is about
With your surgically enhanced profile
375 cc’s that make the men smile
I was your safety net play
You used all your guile
Giving visitation rights
To me for a while
Now I hear your house burnt down
What will you do with no labels around
Don’t mean to snicker
At this little glitch
All I can say is
Karma’s a *****

Me, I’m living with all I have left. Fighting to pay off debt
Trying to find someone much different from you.
See, I learned my lesson. Did you learn one too

I am on my way back it is a long road but,I will get there. I think you know that. I think that is why I keep seeing your name on the caller id.
Ever wonder why I don’t answer?

What do you want from me that I have not given you in the past?
Leave me alone I can’t feel you anymore. To steal a line from Tom Petty
Don’t come around here no more
You darken my door
Whatever you’re looking for
Don’t come around here no more…..

kc08
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was asked if I take request so I guess I asked for this. When I said I would try the subject I was given was to write something about a guy in a wheelchair in a grocery store
This was about 20 min ago so I know this is rough... I tried Stef....................

Front Row Parking

i come around the corner
we come face to face
you turn away – everyone does
this chair you see is just a vehicle
it’s not who i am
why won’t you look me in the eye
when you turn away
i still exist
i went so you could be free to be you
i pray you never see
the things i lived
you would have been proud to stand next to me
i fought bravely
and now you can’t look me in the eye?
what are you afraid you’ll see
i may have left parts of myself there
in that desert of blood
but i am whole – inside
no matter how many times you turn away
you will never take that from me
look at me – look me in the eye
don’t hide from your shame
i ask nothing of you
except to be treated as the man i am
so look me in the eye
next time
i am a man
i am your brother
i am your son
i don’t need your pity
or your front row parking

kc08
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Airport Daze

Sitting alone in a terminal full of people
Wishing to be anywhere else
I met your eyes

It was one of those glancing looks that last a lifetime
You smiled at me with such warmth it parched my soul

My returning gaze told a story you knew too well
A longing that caused the little crinkle on the bridge of your nose
You understood more of me in that moment than most ever will

Then he appeared, handing you the soft drink you asked for
The look you gave him was not as delicate as the one I was awarded but,
it is the look he had eared over the years

That look sent me back to different place in a different time

I felt bad for you

Until I saw the entire terminal light up
She tugged on your coat yelling for a drink
Mommy, mommy…daring you to ignore her
She was beautiful and so was your glow

Now I know

Last call for boarding of flight………
I walked to my gate readying myself for the long trip home

I had to take one last look

You were watching me and I was happy to discover that
Looking passed his shoulder you mouthed to me the most awful word in the English language.
Goodbye.
You will never know how great I thought that was

My smile confused the robot at the door of the plane
She forgot to thank me for choosing their airline

Oh well, I’ll find my seat and dream of a different place in a different time…

As the plane was about to taxi out, she approached me
Sir I am going to have to ask you to hand over your drink

Being confused by her request, I made the mistake of asking why and started a chain of events that I still can not believe today
At this point she informed me that she did not have to answer to me and it would be best if I simply gave up my drink or she would have me removed from the plane

My laughing was in no way to belittle her I was still in a daze over my encounter in the airport she however, took it as an attack on her authority (when did she get authority anyway?)

When we heard the engines shut down I knew it was not going to be my night
The gentlemen sitting next to me asked if she was kidding with this whole thing

The smirk on her face said more to us that any words she could have mustered
I told her she is little more than a waitress in a tube and that she was treating her customers pretty rudely

Being thrown to the floor of plane is not a pleasant experience and the two men made sure I knew this
These were not the kind of handcuffs I was used to either. Sure the pain was there but, there was no pleasure to follow
As I was being dragged down the aisle the applause was unnecessary to say the least

The poor guy next to me met the same fate
Guilt by association I supposed

I told you to give me the drink the robot said to me and in the most condescending voice you ever heard she added…
Thank you for choosing *********** airlines

Sporting our matching forehead and nose rugburns
Bob, as I have come to know him and I were being led back to the terminal
Where I prayed you would not see me

Thankfully, you had boarded your flight. I was hopping you took the time to throw away the drink

Fifteen policemen and two FAA agents escorted my new partner in crime down a long hallway. I was stuffed into a room that was more suitable for janitorial supplies.
Two hours of interrogation was getting us nowhere
I was no threat nor was Bob. They; just like the waitress refused to answer any of my questions
Fingerprints and photographs were taken and I will spare you of the details to the extent of the search we were subjected to (Bob and I did not laugh about this later at the bar)

We did discus the evening over a few drinks however, it was at the Presidents Club of another airline

I apologized to Bob once more as we parted
Getting aboard separate flights as mandated by our new friends at Airport Police
He shook my hand, turned and left
I can still see smile on his face as he passed the trash can…

Four strangers forever linked… in memory

Me with my new found understanding of the arrogance within the airline industry.

The robot who is convinced she is the last line of defense to our National Security and
who, single handedly ruined what could have been a beautiful moment in time

Bob, poor Bob, an innocent bystander guilty of having the nerve to laugh at a situation that was quickly spinning out of control. Never knowing, how the words bend over and spread-um could make one feel so small…until now

And the women in the terminal
With one look delivered a hundred dreams and counting

Sad and yet so beautiful this life can be

Wherever you are know that you took a small part of me with you that day
and gave to me something much bigger
Hope re-born

Found in an airport daze

kc07
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Pride

Nickolas
I will always love you and always be there for you...

He entered my life at six months old
with no one to be his father.
As occurs all too much in this world,
someone just didn't bother.

My love for his mother,
grew and grew.
Something else happened,
I fell in love with him too.

Nine years went by too fast

Remembering-
The times I ran when he fell.
Listening to the stories he`d tell.
Watching the world through his eyes.
Hurting every time he cries.

He is a wonderful child,
with a brilliant mind.
Compassionate,
funny,
exceedingly kind.

It cannot be measured all I learned from him.
I was supposed to be the teacher.

Nine years went by too fast.
For his birthday this year,
he asked.

Could we be a family again?
Now, that's heart wrenching stuff,
from a child of ten.

Last night I cried,
when we ended our call.
No, it wasn't for the,
I love you.
You will see.
The tears were a mixture,
of pride and sad.
For the word he chose,
to call me was...
Dad

KC07
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