Hey, my name is Angel im 20 year's old and currently live in the woods, not much to do around here except talk to people online.
Im some one whos mildy been through some stuff, dont remember alot of it, but ive been a place or 2.
I like rock, medal and country.


Im pretty much open to talking to any one, Ive got alot of my own problems but Im allways up for helping other people, so just drop me a line I any old time.
I work all week 9-4 so if I dont respond right away I mean nothing by it Im probbaly just at work or on the phone, I will reply, unless its some smart ass comment then go **** you're self.

Other then that theres not much to say on my part, im a pretty kind person I think, I love animals, people, allthough I do like my alone time.
I hope to finish my GED here in the next month, only one last test to take, Im not really sure what I wanna do with my life, allthough college is in the future for me.
My education is very important, and I wont be happy unless I finish it and get to were I wanna go in life.
Preferablly at the top of a huge tower with my logo running on a massive screen across the side, laughing deviantly, while throwing loads of money out the window.
Ive spent the last 3 years desighning video games as a hobby, other hobbys are horse riding and working my arse off.

Sex : No thank you, but thanks for asking
Hieght : taller then most but not too tall
Wieght : HAHAHA how dare you -_- *smacks*
Eye color : .....Open you're own eyes and look for you're self!
Hair color : you really are blind arent you?
Music genre ; rock, country, medal, the sound of baby seals dieing

For any other information...well you're out of luck unless you ask, thank you and have a nice day...

Angels Poetry section!
This is some of my favorite poems and songs that I have written enjoy!

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Twisted Mind

Welcome to the twisted mind
Alone I stand raped inside
The jack has failed I have the queen
So bring the ransom to my twisted dreams

Felt of hate felt of lust
Burning my angel wings to dust
Fall deep into the pit of despair
What is this in the mirrior that I cant bare

Alice is gone wonderland is mine
Bring me the mindfull dreams of the twisted mind
Broken and bloody waking to only pain
I feel for my heart knowing Ill never be the same
You ask me my dear if I can cry
Theres nothing left in me to die

Ticks away the twisted mind
Never felt love wishing I could die
Despair rushing over me
I reach for the surface gasping for air

This is my twisted mind
Alone I stand raped inside

Angel

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Are you lonely My dear


Are you lonely my dear
Away from you're face I whip the tears
Love and lip stick they go hand and hand
You stand here silently unknowing im you're man

The quiet look you give me says so much to my heart
Even as you stand here thinking its all falling apart
The clock ticks slowly away Our lips close together
Love is life as seemless as lace and leather

Are you lonely my dear
For you I will allways be here
Lips so smooth I melt to the core
Closing my eyes my head spins wanting more

The quiet look you give me says so much to my soul
Our bodys press tightly together as we become whole
The clock ticks slowly by our lips breathing so far apart
I cry here before you knowing this dreams only from my heart

Are you lonely my dear
For you I will allways be here

Angel

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Skin So Frail

The touch of youre skin so frail
The touch of youre lips makes my hatred pale
Why does youre heart have this affect on me
When I thought I was a strong as could be
Broken down the walls of my enternal fortress
I walk now with you in the pale moon forest

For so long Ive forgotten love
My iron angel wings constrained with rust
The touch of youre skin so frail
It brought me down from my thrown like a storm of hail

The touch of youre skin so frail
The touch of youre lips makes my hatred pale
Agianst you I am defencless my love
Tamed the wild beast to become a dove

Angel

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Dear Sweet eyes

Your dear sweet eyes
how they tear into my dark disguise
Dear sweet eyes framed by Skin so pale
softly light by the moonlights viel
Clearing away the murky water that drowns my heart
How did I ever go so long in life, so far apart

Cold was my torment serounded my pain
The love of youre life swimming through my viens
lay to the river the sun rise it may
I left you a silent prayer on this cool winter day

Your dear sweet eyes
onto love wish I may to leave this lonely desert so dry
To walk through the cool winter day
stairing into youre dear sweet eyes I am no longer afraid
My wings once limp lift high again
I close my eyes as the worlds starts to spin
How did I ever go so far in life, so far apart
Never seeing youre eyes, with every beat of my heart

Angel

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One Night In The Creep Hippy Van

One night in that creepy van
I questioned if it was right to feel like this for another man
His hard chissled body pressing agianst mine
I stood at attention my flag held high
One night in the creepy hippy van was all it took
please no not the hot sauce, its used for when you cook

One night in the creepy hippy van
I fell deep into another man
His hard furry buns of steal made my heart pound
His gentle hands reach for the lube, as I lost all doubt
With a deep breath and a gentle thrust
I sighed as I gave into lust
The vibration ran straight through me that night
I squirmed a little, and you told me not to fight

One night in that creepy hippy van
I questioned if it was right to feel like this for another man
Our breathing was muffled by the silent sqeak of the shocks
Ill never forget how it felt to have you in me, so red hot
You are every thing to me
I love the feeling of you inside of my being
The slow steady motion
I grab the sheets, you're skin smooth as lotion
Ive never felt like this for a man, so much emotion

One night in a creepy hippy van is all it took
I felt like a new lover, straight from a romance book
the clock ticks slowly by, time moves fast
You gasp and I feel you're warmth all over my ass

One night in a creepy hippy van
Ill never question if its right to feel this way for another man

Angel

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Stay calm

Please stay callm I say to my self
Feeling of desperation feelings pulled off the shelf
hesitating often leads to failure
Ive been here before its so fimiliar
Dont forget to concentrait but dont over do it

Angel

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Shes my sacred myth

Shes my sacred myth
my midnight summers wish
her hair is like silk and shines like a velvet rose
her eyes sparkles and sing to me as I pull her close
Lips so smooth they speak that sacred song
I fall into her winter like love were nothing is wrong
What is this that whispers in my ear

I glance at the stary skie as she pulls me near
closing in around me the viel apun my heart
I realise this myth is one so dear
and yeat feels from me so far apart
Move to the dawn of the purple east
You allways knew how to put my heart at ease

Blind me from the rightfull way
I walk down the dusty road to see the promised land
Ill be waiting there for you on that cool winters day
if only I could see were it was in this dry world of sand
She is every thing to me, the quietest dream
the song that I dare not alone sing
As soothing as the cold winter breeze
I concentrait on her and try to breath

She is my sacred myth
My midnight summers wish
I am her Angel of passion, whos soul is unredeemed
I am her every passion, the secret song in my ear she sings
She is my sacred myth
My midnights summers dream

Shes my sacred myth
My midnight summers dream

Angel

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You fell asleep

Tonight you feel asleep so far away
How I wish I could be there yeasterday
To be the one to hold you tight
To whisper in youre ear, I love you every night
In beautiful dreams lost in love
We fly together like a pair of doves

Your touch Ive never felt, but this I know
Once I do, youll never be alone
For so many year's lost and confused
In one night it all is brought back, as I fall for you
So many miles lay between us now
How you're voice has unchained me, I dont know how
Tonight you fell asleep so far way
Oh how I wish I could be there today

Tonight you fall alseep alone
some day soon for you Ill be home
I lay here tonight miles away
Hoping Ill wake up next to you today
Never before have I sayed this my dear
To tell you I love you, Ive lost all fear
In one night it is all brought back, as I fall for you
I lay here wishing this bed was filled with two

Tonight you fell asleep alone
Some day, to you ill come home

Angel

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You fell asleep

Tonight you feel asleep so far away
How I wish I could be there yeasterday
To be the one to hold you tight
To whisper in youre ear, I love you every night
In beautiful dreams lost in love
We fly together like a pair of doves

Your touch Ive never felt, but this I know
Once I do, youll never be alone
For so many year's lost and confused
In one night it all is brought back, as I fall for you
So many miles lay between us now
How you're voice has unchained me, I dont know how
Tonight you fell asleep so far way
Oh how I wish I could be there today

Tonight you fall alseep alone
some day soon for you Ill be home
I lay here tonight miles away
Hoping Ill wake up next to you today
Never before have I sayed this my dear
To tell you I love you, Ive lost all fear
In one night it is all brought back, as I fall for you
I lay here wishing this bed was filled with two

Tonight you fell asleep alone
Some day, to you ill come home

Angel

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Please forgive my heart

Please forgive my heart
So many time its fallen apart
So many lie's and dark times ive seen
Unknowing if my soul can be redeemed
Lay there the days passed by
Not breathing on my own hoping I would die
the repetitive noise rings in my ear
Ive forgotten every thing, my memorys dear

So give me one last breath, to seek peace
Hoping one day to repent and be at ease
No hope insight they speak of ending it
I cry silently, feeling them closing the pit
To be so helpless and lost, without hope
I feel like the man at the wrong end of a rope

I awake in a sudden daze
My throat sore and my body ablaze
A raspy breath, and all is gone
I face life again to face what Ive done
So many feel sorrow for the soul that is me
I know now this is hell, torment for my deeds
I remember not my act's yeat still feel sorrow
To face there judgment, for me theres no tommorow

Please forigive my heart
To be a different person, so far in the dark
Ive passed and come back, you ask me whay I hate this
The name of him is not who exsist
I am Angel, the first thing seen
I am nothing but always trapped in this being

Please forgive my heart

Angel

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My some one special


Last night I saw my special some one
The women for whome my chains come undone
The one whos blood is in mine
and tears aways hatreds eyes

Angel

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Like stone

for so long ive felt alone
my heart gone solid as stone
in a single blink im reminded
ive lost so much, of who I am, truely blind

Id give any thing to be unchained
instead im sitting here only a wish in the rain
felt of hate a pit of despair
trapped behind bar's wanting out of here

To feel the warmth of day would be so great
I lay here every night crying untill late
Im a single shadow on the break of dawn
Ive forgotten my face, and youve moved on

Bound my things I shouldnt feel
so many wounds ive caused I cant heal
why does it have to be this way
my cure scattered to the floor so far away
a silent tear drops from blindess
I wish I had never once but twice felt your kiss

Angel

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I hate it when we dont talk

I hate this when you turn away
I hate it when you try to hide your pain
Keeping things from me doesnt help
So i stand here waiting only hearing myself
I dont know what ive done to desearve this
Why can we go back the days of perfect bliss

You turn away from me and say nothing
I lay there quitly wanting to do something
What I would give to have you cling to me
Instead all I hear is you're tears hitting the pillow silently
For so many years this bed was filled with love
Now I lay here contimplating if I should pack my stuff

Why does it have to be this way, I dont know
At times all I want to do is go
So far apart weve grown from eachother
Ive even thought about trying to love another
So many times I wished this would end
But I look at you and say lets try again

I hate when you dont talk
Some day soon I wont return from my walk

Angel

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The old man

Long ago I lost my pride
to the mountains I retreat to hide
Shame and lost hope
my heart torn and shreaded like rope
A simple thought prokes a tear
Falling down into my greying beared
The hands once so strong
struggle now to write this song

I am the old man
I struggle now to do what I can
So many sun rises ive seen in my days
Now my final sunset I watch, its final rays
Nothing I know, can stop what must be
Ill be at peace atlast for eternity

I am the old man
Remember, do more then you can

Angel

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You fit me you fit me good
You fit me you fit me good
You fit me good you fit me good
Your darkness fits me good

{lead male}

The strong will fall and whispers persuade
By darkness of my heart led astray
I am Angelic wish on this cool winters day
You magnificent saviour come to wisk you away

{Lead female}

Come to the river and the sun rise it may
I whispered silently to you're stone grave
I picked you a flower a dark but holy one
You gasped you're first breath, a desperate son
so lay back to the river, the black rose fallen in shame
I hoped you would wake to take torment from me this game

{back up male}

So untold was this shame
I turned and you left me alone in the rain
I swore to the blood red river
never again would you pearce my heart a silver splinter

{Lead male}

Secrets are hiding in this river
so red and filled with hate
shining in the sun like a emerald with silver
come to my whispers, my heart beat delayed
You fit me you fit me good
you fit me good
you fit me you fit me good
your darkness fits me good

{lead female

folding my arms trying not to sway
I danced close to you like we did yeasterday

{Lead male}
Crisp in stone, the burning embers remain
The people kneel to the angel unto this day

{lead female}
Lay in youre tomb a forgotten but beautiful one
For whome would ever guessed you would be the son
And once apun a time in this land of desertedness
You woke up and earned you're holyness.

{back up male}
falling deep into my desisions
trapped behind these bars is prison
You fit me!
I no longer look with discresion
I look forward to your death, pure agression
You fit me!
You fit me, you fit me
you fit me good
your darkness fits me good.

song closes

Angel

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I hate this

{Lead male}
"whispers"
Why do you hate me my love
Spreading my wings I fly like a dove
Why do you hate me my love
Swooping down like death from above

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Slipping

I feel myself slipping slowly away
I forget who I am day after day
For once so long ago I was him
I look in the mirrior and I see his sin
Falling down the rabbit hole theres no turning back
I scream out loudly as the world fades to black

Feel myself slipping slowly away
I look me in the eyes, Ill never be the same
Forgotten now is the times of darkness
For so many years they thought me heartless
Cold and confused
alone and abused
I partook of this life a silent rose
Taking on this road the lessons I choose

Darkness persuades
and my heart is betrayed
I feel my self slipping I slowly fade


Angel


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Alone cold and without a soul
**** every thing that you think you know
Tired of playing these games
Tired of never completing this damn dreams
****ed twisted
Screw intervention
Let go of hope
Jump with the rope
Angels gone now I have no love
If you dont believe me reread the above!

Angel

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So many years left without a hope
So many years bolth at the bad end of a rope
Fall deep into the eyes of desperation
held back by our seperation
Why does it feel as if Im waking up
More and more my chains are undone
I have searched my soul
But for so long there was only a hole
Complete again to rise up high
Im falling for you I wont deny

Angel

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Darkness and light

{Back up Male}

"whispers"

You fit me you fit me good
You fit me you fit me good
You fit me good you fit me good
Your darkness fits me good

{Male}

The things I hate the most in life can not be taken away
I walk this lonely road trying to hide from the light of day
I will make the greatest sacrifice
but you will never take me alive
I will turn this light into a reason
Shedding my failure like the change of seasons


{Back up Female}

Come to the river and the sun rise it may
I whispered silently to you're stone grave
I picked you a flower a dark but holy one
You gasped you're first breath, a desperate son
so lay back to the river, the black rose fallen in shame
I hoped you would wake to take torment from me this game

{back up male}

So untold was this shame
I turned and you left me alone in the rain
I swore to the blood red river
never again would you pearce my heart a silver splinter

{Female}

The things We treasured the most in life
Is how I stand here silently when you ask me why
Our light
Our reason
Our daily salvation
There will never be a cause to great to face demise
It is how I stand here silently when you ask me why

{Lead male}

Secrets are hiding in this river
so red and filled with hate
shining in the sun like a emerald with silver
come to my whispers, my heart beat delayed
You fit me you fit me good
you fit me good
you fit me you fit me good
your darkness fits me good

{Male & female}

The things I hated most in life can not be given to you
They will never surrender or lose a reason so true
I play a silent song
long and drawn
Im alive and singing
Im awake and yeat still dreaming
Protecting myself from the heart of others
Clinging to hope, like the bossom of mother
Im alone and face the dawn
Playing this song long and drawn
Im alive and singing
but the things I hate most in life is to what I cling

{Female}

Why do you make this sacrifice
For the things that you hate most in life
Completelly jaded
This road so jagged
There must surelly be a reason why
Why you stand here silently, as I cry

{Male}

The things I finally love most in life
Allways there staring me in the eye
You asked me why im not there allready
So many miles seperate us sadly
But this I promise my love
Soon to you I will come

{Male & Female}

The things I hate most in life
Ive given up for you tonight
A chance at redemeption finally free
I step into the light and finally breath
The things I now love more then life
Come to me best when I look into you're eyes
Lifted high my heart begains to beat
I tear in the eyes, hatreds heat

{Male}

"Screams"

The things I now love more then life
Come to me best when I am lost in you're eyes
Shed the old skin
I am no longer dead
Beautifull thoughts begain to fill my head
As I begain to live again
For the things I once hated most in life
Ive cut lose with this redeeming knive

{Male & Female}

The things I now love more then life
Come easier when Im with you at night
Shed the death of my heart
You repaint my every thing, a devine art
You are my every thing
My lovely misery
Ended at last
I forget what I hated, lost to the past

{back up male}

falling deep into my desisions
trapped behind these bars is prison
You fit me!
I no longer look with discresion
I look forward to your death, pure agression
You fit me!
You fit me, you fit me
you fit me good
your darkness fits me good.

{Male}

"whispers"

The things Ive hated most in life
ive forgotten with you in a single night   Send me a message!

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